You will never really know me

You will never really know me

You will only see my face

The one I put on every day

To hide my silent pain.

You will never really know me

You will hear and see me laugh

The simple smile and smirk

Deep down the anger lurks.

You will never really know me

How I long to feel loved

The only thing keeping me

Is God from heaven above.

You will never really know me

If judging is all you do

I sit and pray waiting

Just to get away from you.

You will never really know me

Not even if you try

Because I'm scared

I run away & lie.

You will never really know me

I guess that's how it is

I want to start over

I need more than just this.

You will never know me

You will never really know me.

I'm not the same.

I'm not that girl.

You will never really know me

Because I barely know myself.

Rejection

Rejection is hard. As a girl, you don't tend to see the rejection side of things when it comes to dating. A guy casually comes up to you and says, "Hi my name is [insert name here]." You don't typically think twice about it. You simply judge and then respond. Even if you think you didn't respond, let me tell you, you did. If you brush it off and scoff, that's a response. If you roll your eyes, that's a response. If you laugh with your friend, that is a response.

Have you ever even thought about what it takes for a guy to even come up to you like that? What pride he might suffer if the response is negative? What insecurities he might harbor? How he might feel? My thoughts are that in the moment you haven't. Sure, you were super friendly and then ditched him after he bought you a drink. Sure, you had a great conversation with him until your drink was done. Sure, you let him down easy--you just had to use him before you left. 

You know, we all ask for respect. We all want common decency and yet here we are playing "the game" like none of us have any real emotions, like we are only looking out for ourselves. You are not better than the person standing next to you. You both have the same rights and are both on the pursuit of happiness.

Be kind.